SUNFLOWER

I see you;
Your strength is running out
And you are becoming a weak bubble.

I see you;
Your diminishing light
Leaving mostly a dim brightness.
I see you;
I see darkness engulfing your soul.

I see you;
Deep within your eyes,
The pain you carefully try to cover.

I see you;
With the melancholic story that’s playing
Of dark secrets and a painful life.
I see you;
I see the past fighting to resurface.

I see you,
I see you wholly.

I see you;
With those broken smiles
And laughters with no ring to them.

I see you;
Fighting back those tears,
The tears daring to expose you.
I see you;
I see those emotions screaming to be let out.

I see you;
Unable to heal from everything,
Having those scars raw as ever.

I see you;
With that broken flight
And no urge to fly.
I see you;
I see your hope has run out.

I see you;
You pained creature,
Struggling to gather pieces of your shattered whole.
I see you;
Staring in pain at fragments of what you once were
And wondering how you fell so quickly from grace.

I see you;
I see every bit of your sadness.

I see you;
I see all of you.

I see you;
You who is unable to trust
Because to you loyalty long lost its meaning.
I see you;
With no ability to believe anymore
For what more shall it be than lies?

I see you;
I see you know nothing of truth.
I see you;
Harboring pain from those broken promises
Of forever that never happened.

I see you;
Possessing a new mindset and belief
That happiness is just a myth.
I see you;
I see your unshakeable mistrust.

I see you;
Staring at those papers,
With a strong denial that a pen will officiate it all;
Shivering as you sign,
Shedding tears for a home that no longer is.

I see you;
A burned out flame,
A fire that society has put out.
I see you;
I see the scarring of the judgements and the slights.

I see you;
Haunted by it all,
All the years of torment, of torture.
I see you;
Having all those flashbacks
And remembering all that you wish not to.

I see you;
I see your wild unforgetful brain.
I see you;
I see your daily struggle.

I see you;
Unable to forget them,
Those who gave you the best to live for.
I see you;
Mad at The One above
For snatching them away so soon.

I see you;
I see the pain of loss tearing you apart.

I see you;
Everything and anything,
Even the ones you think I do not.
I see you;
Maybe I should not
But I cannot help it when it’s all out there in the openness of your eyes.

I see you;
I see you fail constantly to keep it all consealed.

I see you;
You, my sunflower
With your withered leaves and fallen petals.
I see you;
Facing down
For there’s no sun to look up to.

I see you;
I see what the winter has done to you.

I see you;
I see you know I see.

I see you and it haunts me
That you are so immune to help.
I see you;
I see it’s hard,
But sunflower, for me, please keep going.

I see you and I’ll tell you this;
Winter does not last forever.
After some period, summer will come around,
And you my precious and most dearest sunflower,
You shall recover. You shall!

18/04/2020

.Mpho